We first met in the fourth grade when a note was passed my way. It read “do you like me? Yes or No – circle one.” This is my first memory of a tingly feeling inside. My fetal mind was unable to describe it. I only knew it made me smile. The seed was planted and without any evidence of your arrival you disappeared. Honestly, I can’t really say that I missed you. My 9 year old mind was not ready for you. Then;
I got to know you in High School when you returned to me. Contrasting our first introduction; you stayed a while placing yourself in the [perfect vehicle] to nurture my heart. You taught me passion, gave me permission to receive you, and showed me how worthy I am of you. I learned your depth, range; I embraced your ability to make everything in my sight……………Beautiful. We had the perfect relationship, but eclipsed from me was another part of you.
Throughout my childhood I had experienced various types of hurt, but never had I felt such pain as I did the day you left me. I couldn’t help but wonder how you could shine on me and teach me so many things. Wrap your arms my soul and tug at my heart strings and suddenly, without a warning……….. turn your back on me. How could I ever forgive you enough to let you back in? Then;
In my adulthood I understood you. I learned that you are a gift. The Greatest gift and to truly understand your depth I had to experience every facet of you. I took for granted your gratitude, forgiveness, pain, pleasure, expression, and acceptance. Instead of cherishing our time together, I selfishly assumed I was your only student.
Love; in this ode to you I only hope you will accept my apology for not lifting you as high as my arms reach. I looked past you instead of taking you in with a slowwwwwwww inhale.
Love..Do you remember me?
Words are my life and this is my ode to Love. Have you taken Love for granted? Is your heart prepared for Love? Speak to me…I’m listening….Holla at ya Gyrl!
